almost cried in the MRT,

but i din (: could feel the tears and managed to blink it back successfully.

wow. i din noe i can be an emotional person too.

it's being ages since i last cried.

sometimes im realli at the verge of giving up,

but i din (:

cause i believe dat im strong?

but maybe i could be wrong?

deres a tennis assessment today.

and i totali flunk it.

got the lowest score i tink.

U-graded.

somtimes.. realli doubt whether joinin tennis is a right move.

yah.. learn new skills.

but i suck at it.

i doubt dat i even grasp the fundemental right.

at least in netball, my coach was praising me.

and im kinda of person who enjoy compliments.

i still rmb being praised by Coach Yeo dat im a 'strong link' for both defence and attack.

dat small bit still keeps me happy till now.

at least i know im good at sumthing.

at least i know im of good use to the team.

at least i know my exsistence is important to the team.

maybe im a netball-kinda girl,

maybe deres no tennis-blood flowing in me.

but it's just too late to regret now.

nothing gonna change.

i need to bear wib it. live wib it.

ya. and dats wad i will force myself to do.

at least last time playin netball is an enjoyment

u will never hear me complainin abt stayin back late to train for coming tournaments

kranji netball- the team that SHINEs. of cos i still rmb it.

at the start of the yr, we promised dat we will put in hard effort to perform in tennis.

i wonder.. whrs the passion now? whrs the interest now?

i once felt that tennis is like so-my-kinda-thing.

guess im wrong.

but. im jus gonna live it.

too late for regrets.

wont dare to expect much. i will jus go for training regularly.

wont carry any hope to play for sch.

cos i dun hab the capability to hope.

yeah. going genting tonite. found out that the passport expiry issue is jus a dumb prank by my daddy. i will try to enjoy it. no point worryin since worries wont change anithing. im so gonna take lots of photos.